Our-Once-Love,Moved!

2009-09-07T18:46:00.003+08:00

The truth lies infront of us.
Everything is set,
Theres nothing to hide.
Problems come constantly,
Solving are easy, you just chuck them here and there?
When your life turned out to be a lie,
You were living a life full of lies...
What do you do?
What do you do, when nobody is there?
Why me?
And not you?
Why am i the one to be hurt?
Why am i the one to care?
When can't i seem to ignore...

I was replaceable,
I was betrayed,
I maybe was misplaced,
For this is what i know.

Everything you say i believe,
but when it's infront of my eyes.
I'm speechless,
I'm blank,
I'm blind.

There are reasons for your moves,
reasons for everything you do...
and i repsect what you choose.
Even if you choose to leave...

For days and days
your words have poured and poured
word heard before
word read before
of
how much love
how much care
how much sacrifice
so how much?
that in my mind i go to the market stall
and i ask...
how much are you selling
how much are you buying

After nights and nights
more of your words come
come proposing
come disposing...

In this dark room
without the shine of the moon without
your words come muscled, come rushing...
you give me everything i want,
but ALL you say, EVERYTHING you say...
FOR ME FROM YOU

So in this moonless room
i see what i am buying for me from you...
and i see my tomorrow night,
days endless and uncountable if i buy
my place.
For Me From You.

Unwanted, JANEx.

a wish, a hope, a dream .

2009-09-04T00:41:00.002+08:00

a wish, to begin.

being with you.

i've always wanted something.

i've always dreamed of something.

i've always wished of something.

i've always had hope for it.

no matter how much i want it, i know i wont say it.

because i consider it as something basic

in love.

Fate?

It hurts to know, you dont know.

It hurts to know, you dont care.

It hurts you know?

it really hurts.

Do you care? Do you really care?

or are those words forced by me.

Are they real?

tell me something i dont know.

because, i dont know why.

i will never know why.

but.

i know you wont like it.

because something close to it before.

and you extremely hated.

the one most thing.

i wanted.

ever.

in.

my.

teenage life.

Thank you for everything.

You promised me, you'll be happy.

Happy, even if i leave.

I'm sorry.

I'm really sorry.

I need time,

alot of time.

Recover? or to forget.

I just need it.

I hope you do read this, and understand.

because...

it's just something i'll never get over.

everything i do, i do it for you.

i love you .

x o x o

JANEx.

2009-08-22T19:41:00.003+08:00

Don't have the faintest idea of what i am doing ;)
One comment, my tongue is red too ;)
Yummz, yum.Hmm, smile?

Save the world, be green.

Dear Blogspot,

♥Girl: Your new girlfriend is pretty. (I bet she stole your heart.)
♥Boy: Yea, she is… (But you’re still the most beautiful girl I know.)
♥Girl: I hear she’s funny & amazing. (Everything I wasn’t.)
♥Boy: She sure is. (But she’s nothing compared to you.)
♥Girl: I bet you know everything about her by now. (Like you knew everything about me)
♥Boy: Only the stuff that counts. (I can’t even remember half the stuff she says because I’m too busy thinking of you.)
♥Girl: Well I hope you guys last. (Because we never did.)
♥Boy: I hope we do too… (Whatever happened to me & you?)
♥Girl: Well I got to go. (Before I start to cry.)
♥Boy: Yea, me too (I hope you don’t cry)
♥Girl: Bye. (I still love you)
♥Boy: Later… (I never stopped loving you)

Isn't this a conversation you dreamed of having with your most beloved ex?

I dont know what is up with my life.

Addiction to this, that, there.

Why the fuck is my life so messed up.

Just now i fucking mucked up my chance of getting my mac.

Now im so.

fucking screwed.

and fucking sad.

Fuck.

Fuck

Fuck.

Fuck

Fuck.

-trys to release stress-

Anyways, dk what to blog for now.

Senior year, haven't get picture yet [:

But coming soon.

With Loveszxc,

JANE-X

2009-08-09T01:33:00.006+08:00

Me & My Beloved Cindy.

Sweetest memories of 09'

I love you :)

I'll fucking miss you.

Dearest Cindy.
Im typing this, watching the clock tick...
One,two,three...
You have about 14 hours in hongkong left.
The last time i will saw you in 2009,
10:50 8th August.
Im sorry i couldnt stay over or bring you the to airport,
but i want you to know...
No matter where you will be, you'll always be remembered by me.
You've changed my life, alot... and when you leave it will be the biggest change.
Although we've only met for 4 years.
We built a great connection which is hard to let it go.
Watching you leave today... was actually :( upsetting.
More than when _______ (wont name) broke up.
More than getting in detension at school.
Thank you for everything...
The moments from everywhere we've been.
From moutain biking in dirty mud to skiing down a mountain.
Camping and experience on the sea,
Swimming, running...
Boyfriend troubles to girlfriend troubles
You've been there when
im sad.
im happy.
im scared.
im hurt.
im tired.
im bored.
im dying.
Cindy, for all the times i was dumb, blind, tired, lazy, stupid, etc...
you would take care of me :)
like my mom ?
Theres so much we've shared,
so much unsaid...
I dont want to make your eyes soar.
But i want to say lastly.
Cindy,
I love you :)
Have a extremely safe journey to America, LA.
Take care.
Best of luck.
Truck loads of love,
Me.

2009-08-04T23:12:00.003+08:00

it's my style... don't diss :)
Bitch, 4 hours on the phone and i get this.
29 CALLS WITH YOU<3

ForeverLove. Muahx.

Yes! There all gonna be MINE.

ZMG. MY SUNS:o!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Firstly,
Dearest Cindy,
No matter where you are, we'll always share something inside us.
For all the moment you've been there forever.
I'll never forget, for the times you made me happy.
For everything you've done.
You've changed my life.
You're leaving in 5 Days.
I know this is spooky and scary, but.
I'll miss you... thank you so much.
Nobody will ever replace you...
Make you sure find the right guy okay?
And report to me whenever you have time.
Because you'll always be my good friend.
No matter where you are.
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Secondly,

SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

HEHE.

tmr ill post this

Muah.

Ciao!

2009-07-25T20:14:00.009+08:00

It's our ride.

24 July 09'My ass looks huge D:<

Love yars <3>

What time issit?

Summer time!

Oh slut, What do you want :) ?
I know you're hot :) xxxx

D:< why so hot?
Randomzxc!

Lickmezxc!

Love Yars <3> HAHAH LOL?

My summer sunshinee!

FROWN GUYS FROWN!

with love;

You got me hanging!

What goin' on ?

Spazz! Loves;

Smile whore :)

i looked a bit turned on :O LOL!

i dont think you guys like this photo

(worst photos of the day!)

Okay, im tired :O
more coming soon.. MAYBE :)
Our sailing ends.
there will be a story soon :) LOL.
xxxx.

♥x-tee.

2009-07-15T18:49:00.004+08:00

tee&afroo♥

im from hawaii (thumbs up)

Kodak moments under construction,

and maybe forever.

Cause i dont have a single idea what to do with it.

HELP PLEASE :)

these photos will be on there :)

i need some skills with html :\

oo, wells.

That's it for today.

xxxx

with luvzxc,

tee.

th-superseven♥

2009-07-14T23:25:00.005+08:00

♥tee&flea.

永远support你

♥Starring many of us :) and many more behind scenes.
Dearest Cindy&James's leaving party.

fankkyouus so much...

♥fantastic four :)
my new polariod picture camera!
awzum yah?
xxxx
it's china town.
Every single one of these photos represent a memory in my heart,
i'll remember what happened,
the reasons why i laughed,
the reasons why i smiled,
and most imporantantly,
why i love you guys so much.
Thank you so much for everything,
& what's more?
live,love,laugh
because,
what's more to life than that

xxxx
with luvzxc,
tee